I'll Make My own Spoons

My Name's Pete. 25/FL. Spoonie with Spine injuries. Ally. Professional Bar Musician. Covers. Rocky Horror Shadow Cast Member. On this blog you'll find a lot of alternative pop culture and indie movies. And a lot of things that fascinate me. You'll also see a bit of me every now and then as well as a few updates on the darker days. Any questions? Please ask. Also if you're feeling suicidal I'd like to talk to you for a few minutes before you go through with it.

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chronic illness never stops sucking, every decision I make is dictated by it.

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Anonymous asked: So you still think mike brown was innocent? The autopsy has proven all of the shots came from the front, meaning brown couldn't have been running away. A dozen witnesses have confirmed the officers side of the story. So, what is unacceptable? Can you not accept the fact that a black kid could commit a crime? Or that a white cop would have to defend himself? Or is it unacceptable that people agree that the facts are against mike brown and that pisses you off?


The police have changed their story multiple times. The witnesses on both sides have changed their stories multiple times.

Tell me why this young, unarmed man was shot 6 times, including blows to the top of the head? Tell me why this officer stopped him in the first place, because police claimed the officer had no previous knowledge of the alleged robbery? The store clerk denied that he, nor his employees, even reported a robbery?

If he did commit petty theft, does that mean he should be executed for it? And if he did get into a fight with the officer, are you telling me that an officer couldn’t restrain this teenager? The officer that people claim fought for his life was pacing the parking lot for a good while after the murder and was walking around the teenager he killed with not a drop of blood on his uniform - how does that make any sense to you? Why did they leave Mike’s dead body on the ground uncovered for hours? If it was self defense, why did they need to change the story so many times?

If Mike Brown committed petty theft, he should have been arrested and had been given due process. People don’t fucking get murdered for stealing from convenience stores. Back in high school, some of my friends would steal the dumbest shit and they were actually all arrested but I can promise you that they’re all still alive because stealing something is not punishable by death.

It pisses me off that this young guy was murdered and for what exactly? The police were sure quick to release that surveillance video but where’s the video that was taken from the cop car?

And beyond Mike Brown, if the way the law is handling the protests in that city isn’t upsetting to you, you might want to ask yourself why. Why are you okay with tear gas being thrown at little kids and protesters who are just sitting on the sidewalk? Why is okay they throw tear gas into private property? That they put assault rifles in peoples faces? That isn’t how you handle a fucking protest. If they are afraid of riots, where is their riot gear? Are they getting ready for a riot or a purge?

Black people are being treated like they’re wild animals.Their lives are considered less valuable by an enormous amount of people. I’m sick of people making it sound like it’s only the “REALLY bad racist people” who view black people as second class citizens because whether you want to admit it or not it has been ingrained into white people and other poc since childhood that black people are somehow scary and are to be feared and are alien or are just Others.

That’s what pisses me off. Why doesn’t that piss you off? Why are you okay with police breaking the law by not wearing any identifiable tags and refusing to give their names when asked? Why are you okay with pregnant women being thrown on the ground and being forced to stay on their stomachs? Why are you okay with police brutality? Why do you believe law enforcement when they are the ones throwing tear gas at media? What’s wrong with you?


Police escalate the violence. Unrest in Ferguson, Part 2

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Lana Raine’s Official FAST & HEALTHY Weight Gain Guide!


Gained 8lbs in 3 weeks following these steps.

Since some of you guys don’t follow me on Instagram, I decided to post my in-depth weight gain/muscle guide for struggling ladies like myself right here! Follow it and you will 100% see results. Trust me! It’s long, but so worth the read if you’re willing to commit. Email me if you have any questions! bonytobombshell@hotmail.com

Typically just called APETAMIN. You may have heard me talk a lot about this syrup, but this miracle in a bottle was honestly the one thing that kickstarted something that I lacked for many years - an appetite. THIS is the reason why I’ve been able to gain weight. To give you some background information about this vitamin syrup, it used to be prescribed as a pill known simply as “cyproheptadine” to people with allergies, but those patients noticed a super increase in their hunger. Soon doctors started prescribing this pill to recovering anorexics or people recovering from an illness that made them lose their appetite/weight. Now, it’s available from certain distributors online. After doing a lot of research I decided to buy it and it jumpstarted my appetite to eat more than I ever could have. I did try to gain weight just by eating a lot alone, but that did not help me as much as eating a lot AND taking this vitamin did.
- I bought a double pack for $25.99 on eBay from the seller “one_stop_caribbean_groceries”. They also sell single packs for $12.99. I recommend buying a double pack when you start because you’ll be taking higher doses when you first start.
- Each bottle lasts 2 weeks when you first start taking it. In Weeks 1-2 you will need to be taking 10mL 2-3 times a day before meals. In Weeks 3-4,

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Dad’s adopted

Alphabet Heroes: J for Jubilee by Barry J. Kelly


I wonder what clothes you wear to school
I wonder how you decorate your room
I wonder how you touch yourself
And curse myself for being across the sea

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Very bad Mental health day

I really lost it again. Got super obsessive and depressed.